so clear now that you are all that I have.

Crazy how things can be so weird and u just get use to it. Just because you have no other option.

I'm so tired. Tired of being apart, tired of pretending it's ok to be so far away of what I want, of people I love, of the person I think I should be. Tired to pretend it's ok.

But isn't it what everybody does, all the time? Accept? "this is just the way life is" or, "that's life". We just don't have another answer. 

I don't know. My mind can conceive things that my life can't follow... is so frustraiting. Woody Allen said that "the human condition is just too tragic". He was right. It could have been so much better. How am I suppose to believe in such a careless and random thing? 

Maybe things are this way so we can appreciate what's good here. It's so little, those things that take your breath way, those people that makes you believe they are angels and those situations where you think: "Yeah, it couldn't be better".
So, what can I do? Try to make it better. And if I can't, well... "that's just the way life is." ¬¬

"It's so thrilling but also wrong
Don't have to prove that you are so strong
Cause I can carry you on my back
After our enemies attack

I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense

We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I'm gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I've lost"